Monday, November 22, 2010 u describe your fashion

i would say that I'm a minimalist. I like straight lines, no ruffles or weird stuff on my clothes. i like earth tones, black, white, grey, and navy, i do not like patterns, most of my clothes are plain. Also, i like mixing feminine style with masculine ones. like girly heels with biker leather jacket, combat boots with frilly chiffon dress, and so on. However, i rarely care about what i put on. When im feeling REALLY lazy, and can't be assed about what to wear, I go out in my orange batik pants, worn out oversized T-shirt, blazer(or any kind of jacket closest to my reach), and orange crocs shoes or flip flops.

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Monday, November 8, 2010

Live life.

Salam all.

How is everyone doing?

I’m sorry for my loooong absence from this blog, and I really really really appreciate those who come here to read this blog.

I have been under a lot of stress lately. Maybe it is just my hormones going beserk, but I often feel down these days.

So a quick update on the skit and skew project. I regret to say that I haven’t made any start on either projects. I attempted to buy a “Sewing for Idiots” book but it was slightly more pricey than I would have liked it to be, and so I kept putting it off, and did not buy it until today. *hangs head low in shame* I have hinted mum to buy me a sewing machine for my birthday. So lets hope that I get it. :D

I have some ideas cooking up in my head for my Skit project, and that was as far as I went as far as Skit project is concerned. My Skit project will be of a thriller genre. It kind of requires a lot of research, but I will try my best to not chicken out of it. Will update you about the projects again, hopefully soon.

Now, I would like to write about changes, and the choices we make as a human being, and the consequences that it leads to.

You know how I am always unhappy, and stressed out about work? (of course you do, 50% of my blog entries are about my woes and agony concerning my work. Sorry. :s)

I am always complaining about work, and yet I have done nothing to change it. I tried fooling myself every morning before going to work, that I LOVE this job, that it is not so bad, but everytime I do so, I would end up at the same spot I always do, and that is in front of my PC, wanting to cry at work. Yes, it is that bad.

I know that complaining about it will not change the wrecked state that I am in. So, I did something to end the woes once and for all.

I resigned.

It took a lot of courage and reassurance for me to do so. I mean it is a big change and it really is scary, what’s with people’s expectations and people depending on us. It is worrying to think that I’m taking the exit off this career highway that might have been good for me, and that this decision is a bad call for me.

But I believe that I am still young, I still have my whole life ahead of me, and I should explore all the possibilities of the choices that will make me feel happy and contented, instead of being stuck here.

Of course the sudden loss of steady income worries me, but, letting my paychecks determine my happiness is not the road I want to go down on. But still, I am (ashamed to admit that I’m) attached to it and it really is a scary thing to let go of. But I have let it go anyway, and I’m starting to feel glad that I did. :)

Life, it all comes down to what makes you happy and feel like you have served a purpose in life. If you like what you do, and it makes you happy, and it feeds your soul, then by all means, do it. If you don’t then don’t do it. Life is for living anyways.

If we’re too stressed to even admire the beauty around us, to feel the sweet smelling cool breeze after it just rained, to rejoice love and laughter, then maybe we need to reassess what we are living for.

This will be some sort of an experiment I will conduct upon my life.

Problem : Unhappy with life/work
Solution : changing the way I live to diminish the cause of unhappiness
Hypothesis : Changing the ways of life will make me happier
Variable : Career choice, way of living.
Result : ___________

I will update again with the turnout of this event maybe in 3 month’s time, and really, I REALLY hope that I can say “Thank God I quit my job”.

p.s: does anyone know a career where I can travel and write and make a living out of it? If you do, let me know. Hehehe.

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