Friday, August 27, 2010



ok, true to its title, this entry would be somewhat sensitive to some. This is just my opinion, and it is not intended to spark hatred whatsoever. And if you have a clean, mature opinion, please share it with me, for my opinion could be severely mistaken.

I live in Malaysia. A multi-cultural country. A country so rich with cultures and diverse ethnicity, a lovely, peaceful country to live in.

However, it is rather filled with taboo subjects, especially, subjects concerning religions. This is I suspect, because being a culturally diverse country,there are so many religions in Malaysia, people just stay out of the way of other's religion topics, so as to not "step on anyone's toe". and so, the topic religion is rarely spoken of.

It is a hush-hush topic, and so, because it is a hush hush topic, and it is rarely spoken of, of course, people start to make assumptions about other religions, and taking everything just based on hear-say, and sometime, the hear-say is not from a valid source. just words passed mouth to mouth. and of course, with no valid source, words can easily be twisted and distorted, to be so far away from the truth.

and this will cause misunderstanding.

For example, the crucifix form. the cross. My muslim readers, have you ever been in Sinma, for example, and looking through necklaces, and found a necklace with a cross-shaped pendant, and finding yourself shying away from it? Like you're not supposed to come in contact with it at all?

The question is why do you do so? True, it is a mark of Christianity. but, so what? what is so bad about that?

We have our faith, they have theirs. We know what we believe in, they do too. and if we do not believe in crosses, why do we fear it so? if we believe, and have faith that it is just a shape representing what Christians believe in, why do we shy away from it?

Same goes with churches. Why are we so afraid to cross the threshold of a church? Isn't it just a building, determined by walls and boundary lines? does it not stand on God's earth? Is it not believed to be rumah Tuhan? the House of God? if the argument is "its THEIR God's house" then, wouldn't that mean that YOU're the one believing that there are Other except Him? Nauzubillah.

I do believe the in existence of God, and that He is the only one, and if He is the only one, wouldn't that mean that we are supposed to believe that there is none, but Him?

and if there is none but Him, why do the concept of religion even exist? because if everybody believes in God. and there is none but Him. wouldn't that mean we believe in the same thing? just in a different way? and wouldn't that mean that the concept of religion is just some sort of labeling?

Have you ever found yourself labeling others as "kafir"? Have you ever stopped to think, what the word means? or did you just label them so because they were not born in a Muslim family, and taught his/her whole life the muslim ways? How vain are we to even think that way?

From Wikipedia

Kafir (Arabic: كافر kāfir; plural كفّار kuffār) is a term used in a Islamic doctrinal sense, usually translated as "unbeliever" or "disbeliever", or sometimes "infidel". The term refers to a person who rejects God or who hides, denies, or "covers" the truth.

The non-believer, disbeliever, a person who denies the truth. Lets focus on the word "denies the truth". To be able to deny the truth, one must KNOW the truth first. In this sense, actually, those who do not know the truth, CAN'T be Kafirs. because how can you deny something you do not know? so, who do you think are the Kafirs? yeah, that's right. it's those who know the truth, but deny it. aint that right?

Now, how do WE even know that One is denying the truth, to be able to lable someone kafir? what? because they're, as we always soooo conveniently put it, melakukan Maksiat? But lets step back and reasess ourselves. What if, WHAT IF, by melakukan maksiat, they feel the remorse, they feel bad and they repent?

now, compare THAT to us, acting so all mighty, going around judging people. feeling smug, and pious, and that we cant do no wrong. Isn't that Riya'? isn't that Takabbur?

We can't judge people, and you know why? because we weren't made to be able to judge people. one is because, we are not perfect, and that we live by the mercy of God. our actions are by the mercy of God. ALL OF IT. if we did good, its by the mercy of God, so how can we be all smug about it? its not even our own doing.

Two is because we weren't made to judge. ok, the technical term would be, we weren't programmed(to really understand this, go here)that way. we are not just. we are biased. we have preferences. we have likes and dislikes. we do not know the truth, other than those that we are made aware of. we do not know what's inside one's head, or hearts.

So in the spirit of One Malaysia (I'm not even Malaysian, but i'm definitely Pro-Unity) let's leave the judging to the Almighty, and why dont we try to understand and tolerate each other? because after all, wasnt it stated so?

"And We have revealed to you, [O Muhammad], the Book in truth, confirming that which preceded it of the Scripture and as a criterion over it. So judge between them by what Allah has revealed and do not follow their inclinations away from what has come to you of the truth. To each of you We prescribed a law and a method. Had Allah willed, He would have made you one nation [united in religion], but [He intended] to test you in what He has given you; so race to [all that is] good. To Allah is your return all together, and He will [then] inform you concerning that over which you used to differ." [Qur'an 5:48]



Tuesday, August 17, 2010

wants and needs.

I'm Sati Sekar.

I'm 24.

And i still don't know what i want to do in life.

I studied architecture for 4 years, and have been a junior architect for almost a year now, and i have the skills needed to work in the field. But that is not what I want to do in life. and i'm quite certain of it.

I do not want to spend my life doing things that do not make me contented and happy inside. However, i am aware that i need to make a living.

I want to be able to spend my time with my loved ones. I want to live my life. not just to exist.

I want to wake up in the morning(not feeling like P.Diddy hahaha.) without that dreading feeling that, oh man, i have to leave my happy place to go somewhere i dont want to be, to be able to make a living, to be able to just exist.

because, really, what is the point?

I want to wake up in the morning, feeling happy, and contented.

I want to be able to make a lot out of myself, instead of being drained for the things I dont want to be doing.

I want to read, I want to learn a lot, I want to make my own clothes, I want to grow my own vegetables, make my own butter, hatch my own eggs, bake my own cookies and bread, make my own jam and marmite, make my own syrup.

I want to spend the lovely afternoon sitting by the window, reading books, the wind blowing softly, the sun-ray coming through the window.

I want to be able to offer my kids warm lemonade when its raining cats and dogs outside of the window.

I want to be able to help them with their homework, and cuddle with them and watch horror movie once they're done.

I want to spontaneously dance the chicken dance with them for no reasons at all.

I want to greet my husband with a smile on my face, and hot home-made dinner, and being able to listen about his day. Instead of flopping down on the sofa with him, both exhausted from work, barely having any energy left, to even talk.

I want to tuck my kids in, and read them bed time stories, and once they're grown up, i want to be a part of their lives. I want to be someone they know will always be there for them.

I want to detach myself from that huge clinging needs of money. and just be happy and LIVE, not just exist.

I think being able to do all those things would be so wonderful.

I'm Sati Sekar.

I'm 24.

I want to do all those things i have said above.

I need to start figuring out how to be able to do that.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Maysaa, black, white and in between

so, during the holiday, i had a little bit fun shooting. i have always known it, but really seeing it infront of me, really made me see that I really love black. I rarely do colors. For me, i like my clothes the way i like my buidling, minimalist, hence the color black,grey,white, maybe navy and dark purple. (and a little bit of color here and there to stop my friends from nagging, and for me to stop feeling like darth vader. heeehee). so here it is, the outcome of the photo shoot. :)
p.s: and yes, the grey dress, black maxi skirt, and the scarf is from Maysaa.(im kind of obsessed with it. very sleek. kind of like the modest-ified Calvin Klein) :)

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