Thursday, December 31, 2009

dear boyfriend,

hey baby, i bet ur still touring freaking europe.

i miss you so much you have no idea. its been all mellow and gloomy since u left, and i feel so hollow inside.(which proves how we're each other's half. u took half of me with u.)

its been 4 years and im still insanely in love with you. :) im still thinking about u every 5 seconds. im still doodling your name at work. i still get all excited getting a text from you.

you're everything to me. my bestfriend, my lover, the one i cling on to, the one i swear and shout at, the one i laugh and cry with.

i love our private jokes.

i love our lame arguments over sunflower's existance(or anything equally as lame).

i love how u always have answers to my questions.

i love how u wink at me when u think no one is looking.

i love the way u treat me like im the only one that matters.

i love the way u lie to my face when u tell me im the most beautiful girl u've ever met (its sweet sayang, but come on!!)

i love the way ur always on my side.

i love how you love me unconditionally.

i love it that ur just on the border of being sickeningly sweet and at the same time on the border of being sickeningly obnoxious.

i love how on days that i hate myself u always find excuses for me not to.

i love it it that i find myself admiring you not just because ur my boyfriend, but because ur so awesome.

i love the way we can snigger and be all cynical about the same thing.

i love how u dont care about silly things most people care about.

i love how u are so sure of yourself without being cocky.

i love your wisdom, your intelligence and logic.(though i hate it when u use it against me)

most of all, i love how i find myself loving you.

love you.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009


lihat above.

colourful bukan?

completely drool inducing bukan?

ia bukan merely ice-cream. ia adalah frozen yougurt.

sweet, sour, creamy, cold frozen yougurt. *salivating*

tapi my toppings would be chocolate balls, peach, and orange jelly.

kenapa malaysia takde?



Saturday, December 26, 2009



seriously, the saying does not go

"if you cant beat them, be just like them, do whatever they do exactly how they do it"

it goes

"if you cant beat them, join them"

whats wrong with u?

oh no wait, on second thought, i'd rather u not join me, i'd rather u try to be just like me in the shadows, secretly envying me and copying my every move like u always do.

** i dont usually lash out in blogs.its just that i lost my diary which embarrassingly enough i just read again today. ha-ha. and im very hormonal. and my bf is traveling all across europe while im here brain dead. awesome.

Friday, December 18, 2009

from my fb note : "on religion, believes, faith and hatred."

**the topic is rather sensitive but I think it a pity that it’s a taboo. I really think we should at least talk about it.

When I was in turkey, we visited this monastery for nuns at Bursa. It was no longer in use and it was turned into an open air museum. The location itself was fascinating. It’s a natural rock formation called the Fairy Chimney (please google it up), which, more or less, is like clusters of caves in which people used to live.

Locations aside, as it was a monastery – or a nunnery, sure enough dalam tu ada like banyak gila abandoned churches, which did not look even a little like churches, more like a cave with inscriptions in it which was used by these nuns to pray.

So anyway, we went into one of those churches while our tour guide explained the details of the inscriptions and who drew it and the whys and hows. One of the fact, which architecture students may have learned in their 1st semester- Gothic cathedrals chapter, is that the plan of a church is usually of a crucifix form, kalau French more elongated cross, kalau English more equal legged cross(or the other way around. Tak ingat dah).

Then, I noticed that one of the pakcik in my group started to bounce up and down at the ball of his feet. I had to wonder “dia ni kenapa? too much sugar ke apa?”

When he met my questioning eyes, he explained sheepishly, “ni cross” then stamped his feet several times on the floor like he was stepping on it.

My jaw dropped.

Pakcik, seriously?

I really think that was low. And not to mention uncalled for. Why would he want to do that?
Yes, I get it we’re Muslims. Perhaps you a more devoted one than me. But it certainly does not mean we get a free pass for disrespecting other people’s religions and believes.

What if people did the same to what we consider as sacred in our religion? Treating it with disrespect, ridicule it and worse, stamping their feet on it?

I wrote about someone who stops prejudice in my last note, and people, this is how prejudice is started. This kind of thinking spreads easily (I should know, my little sister – having made friends with this pakcik and not knowing any better – followed his suit stamping her ignorant feet on the floor).People who didn’t know any better spreads it to equally clueless people who spreads it to brawns with no brains, and the cycle never ends. The next thing you know, people with different religions and believes starts hating each other. And war starts.

Ladies and gentlemen, from my perspective, believing and having faith in one’s religion does not connote disrespectful behavior towards other believes. Nor does it mean hateful treatments towards different religion believers.

For one, God explains in holy Quran that he caused the different nations with different beliefs only for them to compete in doing good deeds that bring them closer to God, but not to stay in conflict or hatred. Quran says:
"... If Allah had willed, He would have made you one nation (one belief), but that may test you in what He has given you; so compete in good deeds; then God will inform you about that in which you used to differ" [Quran, chapter 5, verse 48]

Plus, it is stated in holy Qur’an that we shalt not hate
"There is no compulsion in religion..."[Quran, Chapter 2, Verse 256]

And on top of that, check out Quran, chapter 60/ verse 8
" God does not forbid you from showing kindness and dealing justly with those who have not fought you about religion and have not driven you out of your homes. God loves just dealers."

So, really, think deep.

what’s our excuse?


kebahagiaan yang sementara.

yesterday, i received an e-mail from the University of Nottingham that says


Dear Miss Sekar Kinanthi

Congratulations on your recent offer to study here at The University of Nottingham. We would like to welcome you to the first International Office newsletter of the year. These newsletters are designed to keep you up-to-date with all the information you need for your journey to Nottingham.
We look forward to welcoming you to the University next year."

so i pun jumped up and down round and round la kan. TETAPI. i thought, wait, bila masa "im recently offered a place at the uni" pun? so i check punya check punya check, my application is not complete yet sebab the documents i submitted to them tak sent lagi.

and true enough pagi tadi dapat another e-mail that says;

"Dear Miss Sati Sekar Kinanthi,

Very many thanks for your recent application to The University of Nottingham and for considering us as one of your postgraduate choices for further study.

We are contacting you as an email newsletter was sent yesterday in error to some of our current applicants - if you received this newsletter, please disregard the information congratulating you on your offer of admission from The University of Nottingham. A decision regarding the outcome of your application has not yet been made."


bongok. hahaha.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

yes ma'am

so i had to go to a meeting at the ministry of education. and i found myself feeling all inferior to all these old ministry worker. i have no clue why. i just do.

So anyway, the meeting was all about this new school my firm is designing, and basically, every change we made, be it design wise or m&e or c&s (u get the point) must be approved by the ministry board for financial purposes. I was there with my supervisor, and he had to, be all puan this puan that, u know be all polite to her(even wth the sneering slimebags being all kerek and cracking super lame uncalled-for jokes to him) because her approval means kesenangan hidup for all of us dan berjalannya projek dan kemampuan untuk membaca dan menulis bagi kanak kanak around that area (haha). tapi tak dapat pun, so we had to go to a VO meeting explaining to bunch lions why the cost for building increased, while the lions bites our innocent lambs' heads off.

this kind of demeanor eerily reminded me of a certain someone. a certain someone i know so well who has power dalam the ministry. i've always wondered why he always acts all superrior to org
org around him. and after seeing the way these people at the ministry acted during the meeting i started to see why.

they are used to being yes-ed all the time.(no, make that yes ma'am-ed/sir-ed.) so they are feeling all mighty tighty about it. they are used to getting their way.

ah.. and there i was, thinking being an architect is super cool. tsk. yeah right.

that is it. my new resolution. i wanna be yes ma'am-ed all the time. regardless of whether the yes ma'am-ed proffesion makes me rich or not, cool or not, or famous or not. hahaha.

bow down and kiss the ring!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Facebook stuff ppl do that i cant quite get.(read: annoy me)

1. persistent peoples who keep on adding you though you've ignored him/her several times.

2. people whom you've never spoken to in your life and whose names you do not know who adds you.

3. status that says "good morning" with 63 or so comments saying good morning back.

4. comments that says "thanks for the add". like what the hell does that suppose to mean?? newsflash: British Council does excellent English programme.

5. Screen names like "Almari Biru" or something as pointless.(at least my lame screen name dulu ada my name).

6. said name above combined with equally pointless picture of say, football player, cartoon characters and such.

7. ppl wth point 5 and 6 who puts their profile on private who adds u up. how the hell can you tell diorg tu sapa?

8. comments like "tumpang lalu". seriously, maksudnya apa???? intention menulis such word tu apaa? is it like seret code of freemason movements that i dont know ke apa?

9. new ppl (whom u do not know) on facebook who adds you up... with an accompanying message that says : hi, im new in fb and i wanna make new fwenz, sbb tu sy add awak. **or something like that.

10. ppl who write abt stuffs above( eg: moi).so, i prolly annoy u. ngeh.

Monday, December 7, 2009

duct tape over my mouth

i have a lot to say/write.

But, but, but. im soo incredibly busy (im supposed to be writing meeting minutes AND coming up with a car park design as we speak).

what a pity. and its about racial/religious differences too. haish. i was looking forward to taking in many many perspective on that matter.

one of these days i'd just quit being an architect, and become an author (ceh! baru 3 hari kerja nak bising)


so nanti lah ye?

this post is super pointless. but then again thats the point. ngeh.

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